"Onward and Upward"
Oftentimes when life is difficult I remind myself that I must go "onward and upward" but not in an ignorant/misogynistic way like Rosemary Pilkington who was part of the show that I directed and choreographed for FLOT, but in a quest for all woman-kind or just anyone who has felt sort of like they didn't fit in.
I have found that having a man in one's life is extremely difficult and is a real time eliminator, therefore, I have become extremely good at budgeting my time, as you all know I am working towards making an income as a writer, I definitely have a ways to go, but eventually it will happen. I may have to sell-out and become a teacher and I find myself looking at casting calls wondering if I could ever go into acting. It is also my dream to work at an Equinox gym and meet Tina Fey and collaborate with her, because when she was nominated for a Tony award, she said that she cried right in the middle of Equinox, according to the New York Times. Hey, it could happen!
Speaking of famous people citing. Both instances occurred in Times Square. The first I have no idea if this person was famous or eccentric and had an entourage of photographers ]
My first thought was "Oh my gosh, that looks like Lady Gaga, but I have no idea. Another time I just happened to be walking through Times Square and encountered a parting crowd. Naturally I stepped aside and all of a sudden this Japanese boy band came out of nowhere. I literally scored a front row center spot, I'm sure that teenage fans were sending me telepathic death threats, but I'm a dancer so I fully appreciated what was going on.
After their performance I was excited. I knew this group was a big deal, however, I did not know this group's name. Later through my Facebook friend I found that this group is called BTS.
I actually had another perceived celebrity citing. Once I was walking outside of Rockefeller Center and I think I saw him... my beloved Pete Davidson. I must say he did look quite uncaring equipped with a basketball jersey, fully sleeved tattoos, large headphones, and pushing one of those old lady carts. Me and the A. Athlete have a code for people like that... it appeared as if he gave zero fucks! Sometimes when we see something real extreme we'll text eachother and tell of this great instance.
The other day I was on the subway and saw an instance of someone giving zero f*&ks, but the best was when I saw someone leaning over a pedestrian barricade and mid-bend decided to take a power nap.
A lot of my new life in New York City is devoted to observation. Oftentimes I find myself taking photographs out of intrigue and wondering what the story is behind these images... like this bicycle I see on the way home from the subway every day. It is locked up like the owner had every intension of returning to it, but obviously something happened and it remains to be a sad reminder that life doesn't always work out the way we intended. Maybe one day the owner of this bicycle will return to the city and start back where they left off, even though the bike is now out of fashion.
So, through my observation I continue to write. One morning I even woke up at 5:00, I was so please by this because I am starting to acquire the natural traits of an artist. This week I continued to work steadily on my book. I keep telling myself that once my book is out there I will start looking for a job. Every day my thought process changes for what kind of employment I will be looking for. I am not worried about finding a job, I truly believe there are countless opportunities, however I am worried about painting myself into a corner. Initially I got out of Fairbanks to escape my mundane job and to seek excitement and a challenging life, so why would I want to work in the same field that I saw a need of getting out of? These are the kind of questions that I struggle with every day, and until the moment when I become employed somewhere knowing the right thing to do will remain to be a mystery. I guess the best that I can do is keep moving "onward and upward" and trusting that things will all work out.
